My Lil' Heaven

2012-01-28T08:42:00.000+08:00

You don't know me, you don't wear my chains.

2012-01-20T23:17:00.003+08:00

So busy kissing fears that could only suffocate.

2012-01-20T11:25:00.000+08:00

So busy kissing fears that only suffocate.

2012-01-20T11:20:00.002+08:00

"I'm afraid to stay, you're afraid to leave."

2012-01-19T14:28:00.000+08:00

2012-01-19T14:21:00.000+08:00

You can close your eyes to things you don't want to see,

but you can't close your heart to things you don't want to feel.

2012-01-19T14:17:00.000+08:00

Chocolate craving ):

2012-01-19T14:05:00.002+08:00

"There are things that we don’t want to happen but have to accept, things we don’t want to know but have to learn, and people we can't live without but have to let go."

We can't control it can we?

Sometimes we're left with nothing to choose from?

we're left with only a choice.

2012-01-19T13:39:00.002+08:00

She asked me what the happiest day of my life was.

I closed my eyes.

I heard you whispering into my ear for the first time,

you told me you loved me.

Long distance relationship,5983 miles apart.

2012-01-19T12:56:00.000+08:00

Distance won't break us apart?

I'd like to believe that.

Really sweet! ^^

2012-01-17T13:03:00.001+08:00

Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when

I'm afraid to fall.

2012-01-11T17:33:00.002+08:00

"Different stars produce different sounds based on a number of factors, including their age, size and chemical composition. "

Stars can produce radiowaves on their own, hence, the sound of stars.

Gorgeous eh?

I guess this was the hidden reason why i am so compelled to watching stars.

I have loved them all along, not knowing the hidden beauty of every single one of them.

Nice.

"Look at the stars, look how they shine for you."

2012-01-03T16:57:00.001+08:00

Goodbye with no reasons is the most painful one.

Love without reasons is the most beautiful one.

Thanks for being there, despite everything.

2012-01-03T16:53:00.001+08:00

You'd never leave where you are until you decide where you'd rather be.

2012-01-03T16:43:00.000+08:00

35 days left/ bring it on.

2011-12-30T13:04:00.002+08:00

The numbers of days left keep spinning around the corners of my mind.

Entangled together with memories, memories

and even more memories.

Breathing in,

"let it go."

I would like to think of my situation this way:

A helpless child,

using his might to hold onto his father's hand.

His tiny fingers and palms lose grip time and again.

But still,

despite the limited strength of his,

tries every inch of his strength of his two hands

to grab hold of his fathers hand.

He never realises that,

even if he lets go of his father's hand.

He'd never lose his father.

Cause he's got the boy cradled in his other arm.

He's been carrying hin, cradling him in his arm all this while.

Safe, tight and secure.

The boy's fears were so significant,

it blinded him of everything else.

"I dare you to move."

Move = Let go.

Its as if i can hear him whispering to me.

Do you trust me enough to let yourself go?

2011-12-30T13:01:00.000+08:00

Carved with Love.

2011-12-30T12:45:00.002+08:00

Thank you to all my favourite girls.
For the crazy stayovers,
uncontrollable laughters,
giving me such a wonderful time and yet again,
such unforgettable memories.

The year is ending.
& my clock starts ticking.

I wonder if excited should be the right word i should use to
describe how i feel now.

"4 weeks."

2011-12-16T16:17:00.002+08:00

In life, it’s the outliers that tell the most significant of stories, and the amateurs that make the most progress

Cats, dogs.

2011-12-16T16:08:00.000+08:00

You feed a dog and he looks at you in awe, thinking,

“Wow, they’re feeding me. They must be Gods!”

You feed a cat and he looks at you in calm detachment, thinking,

“Wow, they’re feeding me. I must be a God!”

Once

2011-12-16T14:54:00.002+08:00

"I make believe

That you are here

It's the only way

I see clear. "

2011-12-16T14:46:00.000+08:00

Lie.s

breaking us down.

"the little cracks they escalated, before we knew it was too late"

2011-12-16T14:36:00.002+08:00

"Falling slowly"

-imperfectly beautiful :)

Noc Kupały - Lampiony Poznań 2011 - rekord Polski

2011-12-16T13:31:00.001+08:00

Please.

I wanna do this before my time comes

So pretty.

7 weeks left.

2011-12-15T01:37:00.000+08:00

Hold your hand when you’re so out of faith.

It could be so nice, growing old with you.

2011-12-15T00:03:00.000+08:00

I wonder,

if i ever crossed your mind.

Did i, or did i not?

2011-12-14T23:47:00.001+08:00

I don't know what makes you happy, or not, anymore.

Should i stop trying.

My heart holds me back, again.

2011-12-14T13:27:00.001+08:00

Just can't be your friend.

Sounds familiar in every way.

2011-12-13T21:05:00.000+08:00

Without knowing it, I'm already smiling.

Thanks.

2011-12-13T10:22:00.002+08:00

you are my dream, personified

2011-12-12T22:55:00.001+08:00

Oh, your love, stronger than my shame.

greater than my pain.

All i wanna do, is grow old with you.

2011-12-12T22:47:00.001+08:00

觉我说着说着天就亮了

我的唇角尝到一种苦涩

我是真的为你哭了.

2011-12-12T22:40:00.000+08:00

其实我不想对你恋恋不舍.

2011-12-12T18:14:00.001+08:00

一絲絲　一點點　燒燬憶記

一幅幅　一聲聲　又復燃起

怎麼捨得你.

2011-12-09T15:16:00.001+08:00

Every tear says of an unheard prayer.

2011-12-09T14:59:00.001+08:00

"Not the first..

but definitely, the last."

2011-12-09T14:31:00.001+08:00

"I just want this to be over.

Fucking sick being sick. "

- 50/50

2011-12-09T14:20:00.000+08:00

"You are not who you say, but what you do."

Nicely said.

2011-12-05T10:41:00.000+08:00

2011-12-05T10:29:00.002+08:00

"Believe in this lie,

with us all."

2011-12-05T10:29:00.001+08:00

Maooo-ning!

2011-12-05T10:26:00.000+08:00

Now all your love is wasted, then who the hell was i?

2011-12-05T10:22:00.001+08:00

我可以永远笑着扮演你的配角.

2011-12-04T23:01:00.001+08:00

感覺就像是受傷的人對自己說謊.

2011-12-03T19:30:00.001+08:00

2011-12-03T19:25:00.003+08:00

Anything from here on, is just another layer of icing.

2011-12-03T19:11:00.002+08:00

OmniaVincit Amor'

2011-12-03T19:09:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, you ask me, "How far is heaven?"

I'd say i was close,

So close.

2011-12-03T07:11:00.002+08:00

Home sweet home. :>

Touched down an hour ago.

The stars from my window

of the plane kept me awake all night.

Gorgeous sight.

The stars filled the skies.

It was amazing.

I took an instant mental picture.

Never wanting to forget that sight, ever.

Long flight though. My butt's numb!

It went down all the way to 1 degree last night.

It was so crazy that i had frostbites on my nose and hands and toes ):

Singapore's too hot for me now. ):

At least its a lil cold this morning.

Nights PKD.

2011-11-24T14:46:00.003+08:00

You're making me bipolar.

I either love you or hate you.

There's no middle ground. Its driving me fucking insane.

2011-11-24T09:29:00.000+08:00

"Morning BT!"

2011-11-23T11:44:00.001+08:00

"And when they say it's all touch and go.

When all you know seems so far away

And everything is temporary, rest your head,

I'm permanent."

-I wish i could believe in that. Every bit of it.

2011-11-23T11:41:00.001+08:00

But girl you make it hard to be faithful

With the lips of an angel.

2011-11-23T11:28:00.000+08:00

Your kind of perfect,

was never mine.

Its already wednesday.

1 more day.

2011-11-22T17:40:00.002+08:00

Love you like a love song.

You are beautiful like a dream come alive.

You're everything i'm not. (:

2011-11-22T14:26:00.000+08:00

2011-11-22T14:08:00.000+08:00

Its all about us.

You, me, we, us.

2011-11-22T13:44:00.001+08:00

Fithos Lusec Wecos Vinosec.

2011-11-21T14:09:00.000+08:00

- With you.

2011-11-21T13:53:00.000+08:00

"Memories don't hurt you".

- crossed my mind while i was packing my bags.

2011-11-21T13:30:00.002+08:00

More than a broken vow.

I've let you go,

i've let you fly.

"why do i keep on asking why?"

I've let it happen.

there's only me to blame.

Tell me the words i never said.

2011-11-21T12:20:00.003+08:00

3 days to flying off, again.

2011-11-21T12:20:00.001+08:00

Drowning in ice water.

Darling, who knew?

2011-11-18T00:35:00.002+08:00

‎"Change is hard but maintaining change is even harder."

Just got back from a movie.

Immortals was really good.

But bloody though. :/

Greek gods are fascinating.(:

But, they've got the plot messed up.

overall, 3D effect was nice, but scary :(

So tired now.

Nights PKD.

I don't even want to start counting how many days i have left.

2011-11-17T17:42:00.000+08:00

Now I'm here, blinking in the starlight
Now I'm here, suddenly I see
Standing here, it's all so clear
I'm where I'm meant to be.

- Tangled

don't you wanna stay

2011-11-17T12:58:00.000+08:00

i really hate to let this moment go,
touching your skin and your hair falling slow.

The truth kept me awake.

2011-11-17T09:21:00.001+08:00

爱你错了吗
为什么会受到这么多惩罚
他们说的话
像针往心里扎
我心中的怕
不知该怎么做才可以放下
只不过想好好的爱一次啊
带我远走高飞
不去理会
这一个蜚短流长的世界布满虚伪.

是你让我选择长醉
繁星守候月不能睡
只因为爱上了夜的黑.

2011-11-15T11:41:00.001+08:00

Drop everything now,

meet me in the pouring rain.

Kiss me on the sidewalk

& take away the pain.

2011-11-15T09:58:00.002+08:00

85 days to be exact,

(not even counting the next time i'm flying again, next week.)

12 weeks.

2040 hours.

The clock's ticking,

hearts beating.

Looking through my wardrobe,

that particular blue dress.

Tomorrow's the 16th.

2011-11-15T09:55:00.000+08:00

Your smile is overdue.

Give me a reason to doubt this.

2011-11-14T18:12:00.003+08:00

Yes,

i need to stay strong.

This isn't a time for me to crumble.

This is a time for me to hold on,

hold on to patience.

That's all i need.

Tested just now,

Negative.

3 more days there's gonna be another round.

Tell me love,

Please tell me again i'll be fine.

I need to hear it from you.

Again and again.

Cause now the only thing i want to believe in is that, i'll be just fine.

I need to stay strong and focus.

I need to be strong and stay that way.

I need to believe in this.

Circumstances are not looking good at all.

But I'll learn and try not to succumb to negative thoughts.

Thanks for being there for me, always.

P.s PKD,

I'll never forget,

"Life is not dying in this fight."

2011-11-14T13:21:00.001+08:00

"Forever is only the beginning"

- You ready for breaking dawn ?

2011-11-14T12:56:00.000+08:00

In the end we had pieces of the puzzle, but no matter how we put them together, gaps remained. Oddly shaped emptiness mapped by what surrounded them, like countries we couldn't name. What lingered after them was not life, but the most trivial list of mundane facts.

From five, they had become four, and they were all the living and the dead, becoming shadows.

- The Virgin Suicides

2011-11-14T12:37:00.001+08:00

If i could sleep forever.

-Virgin Suicides

Find home.

2011-11-14T12:04:00.000+08:00

Here in the night
I have known silence far too well
The whispering of fright
You were the one who knew my fears
And held me close.

Graceful and wise,
You were the one who woke my heart
Kept it alive
You were the one who took my fear
And let me go.

Caffeine;

2011-11-14T10:16:00.004+08:00

Caffeine.

已经淡了吧 ,

多放些糖也很难有变化,不如喝完这杯就各自回家

别坐在对面欣赏我的挣扎 .

一场失败的爱情像个笑话热得时候心乱如麻

冷了以后看见自己够傻

人怎么会如此容易无法自拔.

一场无味的爱情像个谎话

甜的时候只相信它

苦了以后每一句都可怕

人怎么会如此难以了无牵挂.

2011-11-14T10:15:00.001+08:00

The more I think of you, the less I think of you.

ironic but true.

2011-11-12T21:43:00.003+08:00

I've never felt this way before.

I felt it.

Heart-wrenching.

I know this time, its for real.

I was so decided on leaving,

so ready to let everything go.

So strong, so determined..

But today i broke down.

I never realised how different it would be,

Without any of these, anymore.

It struck me so hard, so bad.

But, then again, you helped me pull this through, again.

Thank you so much.

Yes love, i'll be strong.

And this is for you,

and for me.

"You always hurt the one you love most."

2011-11-11T08:26:00.002+08:00

He loves you.

So much that,

he doesn't give you the people you want.

but the ones you need ,

to help you,

hurt you,

leave you,

love you,

to make you the person you were meant to be.

Thanks for being the one who helped me,

being the one i need,

and lastly,

for loving me.

2011-11-11T08:20:00.002+08:00

Things will be hard at times,

but i'll learn to try.

I've finally decided.

Oh, Capri.

2011-11-11T08:12:00.003+08:00

Morning , rise and shine.

Indeed,

like what you told me last night.

Life is short.

5 years isn't a joke.

Barely one year could change our worlds.

Give it half a year would do.

We both made foolish decisions in our lives i guess?

Looking back, i don't even know what i was thinking.

Thanks for being plain honest with me last night.

"I don't wanna fight no more.

Everything without you is a lie. "

No matter what,

I choose not to believe that lie.

Stay strong my dear.

11.11.11 ( Haha. You're so funny about your 11.11.11 analogy)

2011-11-10T10:29:00.003+08:00

Let me take you by the hand, and lead you to the streets of London.

You caught me by surprise by telling me

you wanna follow me to fly over with me.

Then again, I have to say.

Don't ruin your opportunities over here.

As much as i would want my loved ones over with me,

but you gotta live your life.

Not mine.

Only you know best.

After all , its your choice.

I've no right in interfering your decision?

2011-11-10T10:18:00.000+08:00

Love Hug! (:

so adorable.

2011-11-10T10:04:00.002+08:00

2011-11-10T09:59:00.000+08:00

Morning (:

2011-11-10T09:30:00.001+08:00

It's not about finding the right one.

Sometimes, its about being the right one.

Flying off again in another week's time.

Time's running really short.

So little time, yet so many things unsaid, undone.

2011-10-31T05:00:00.003+08:00

Cyndi Lauper - Time After Time

Confusion is nothing new.

Time after some time.

You say, "Go slow." I fall behind.

The second hand unwinds.

After my picture fades and darkness has turn to grey.

watching through windows,

you're wondering if i'm okay

Secrets stolen from deep inside,

the drum beats out of time.

If you're lost you can look and you will find me,

time after time.

If you fall i will catch i'll be waiting,

time after time.

Thanks for being there,

time after time.

Big tight hug.

Don't cry ,

cause you know i'll be just fine, right? (:

2011-10-31T04:41:00.002+08:00

How To Destroy Something Beautiful

adapted from KAT GEORGE

First, you will meet someone amazing — probably better than amazing. This person will fulfill and exceed all your expectations. Whatever it is you’ve been looking for all this time, this person will exemplify that, and you’ll begin falling for them in every conceivable way.

At the start you’ll be happy. You’ll want to scream about it and wear a t-shirt that says “I’m with awesome” that has an arrow pointing to them so everyone will know that you’re one of the lucky ones. You’ll laugh together and hold hands and it will be like your very own personal romantic comedy.

Somewhre along the way, then something will click inside your brain. You’ll start worrying all the time. You’ll worry that you’re not good enough for your new relationship. You’ll worry you’ll be dropped in exchange for someone better. You’ll worry your heart is about to be broken. You’ll worry it’s all a big fat joke designed to rain even more crap on you, because really, you’ve never been lucky in love. You’ll worry about all manner of inanities and not one of them will come close to making even a tiny bit of sense. But you’ll worry regardless.

So you start acting on your irrational worries. You start putting yourself down. You feel sub-par, like you don’t deserve this wonderful person being wonderful to you all the time. You regress. You become your most vile, juvenile, selfish image. You push and you prod and spout immaturities in a desperate bid to push the other person away. One day, you’ll push so hard you’ll succeed.

You’ll cry because you didn’t want to ruin everything, not really. You don’t know why you acted the way you did, not when everything was so perfect. You wanted it to work out — it was going to be a fairytale. You’ll hate yourself and your childish ways. Maybe you’ve never behaved this way before; maybe you have, but not since you were fifteen.

You’re scared, that’s why you’re being a moron, but it’s not an excuse — just an explanation, and not a particularly good one either. You replay all the crappy things you said and did. The whole thing is an out of body experience — you scream at yourself to stop being an asshole.

What you really want is a time machine, to turn back time. ( Which no one can possibly give), so you can erase all your manic behavior and start from the beginning - throwing your arms around the one you think you once loved. (But this time having self-confidence and also, love for herself.)

Well, indeed, sad but true.

Morning PKD,

I'm glad the

"I-feel-so-bad" days are finally over.

I guess to him, I was nothing more than nothing.

Stupid, stupid me.

What was i thinking?

How foolish i am makes me want to laugh.

I already have a feeling i'll miss you

a lot PKD.

Update you later <3?

Off to bathe & get ready.

Come on skinny love just last the year

Pour a little salt we were never here.

2011-10-31T00:29:00.004+08:00

Finished packing (:

"When will you be home?" she asked.

As she watched the planes take off.

We both know we have no clear answers to where my dreams may lead.

Thanks for being so supportive, always.

I don't want to get it wrong again and again.

This time i need to make it right.

Leaving may not be a bad thing after all i guess.

Nothing's holding me back, anymore.

2011-10-27T10:09:00.001+08:00

You with the sad eyes
Don't be discouraged
Oh I realize
It's hard to take courage
In a world full of people
You can lose sight of it all
And the darkness there inside you
Makes you feel so small

But I see your true colours
Shining through
I see your true colours
That's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colours
True colours are beautiful,
Like a rainbow

Show me a smile then,
And don't be unhappy, can't remember when
I last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know I'll be there

2011-10-21T00:01:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry,

I couldn't resist.

Foolish decisions i make.

I deserve it i guess.

And even before i did it, i guess i've already expected

the worst.

I guess we were never meant to be.

Ever.

I guess the hurt and hate must have been really deep.

Acting this way really hurts me.

Then again, you have all the rights to ignore me or hate me.

Yup.

Guess its even better this way,

i'll leave you so far away that you wouldn't even be able to see me,

or have the chance to bump into me. cool eh? :)

Haha.

A point to celebrate! ^^

2011-10-18T17:30:00.001+08:00

虽然经常梦见你
还是毫无头绪.

你去哪里
虽然不会怀疑你
还是忐忑不定
谁是你的那个唯一
原谅我怀疑自己.

我明白
我要的爱会把我宠坏
像一个小孩.

2011-10-18T08:26:00.000+08:00

下雨天了怎么办

我好想你.
不敢打给你我找不到原因.

为什么失眠的身影
变得好熟悉.

2011-10-18T08:24:00.001+08:00

Everyone makes me smile , but you are the only one that make it special :)

2011-10-14T09:42:00.003+08:00

I'm missing you so much.

2011-10-13T09:09:00.003+08:00

日光离开眼
钢琴键离开了指尖
小提琴离开了音乐

泪水离开眼
五线谱离开了和弦
我却离不开你的画面.

110days left.

I asked myself, again :" Am i ready to leave?"

2011-10-13T08:26:00.000+08:00

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn’t supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You’ll have your heart broken and you’ll break others’ hearts. You’ll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you’ll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you’ve never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone’s hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don’t be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.

2011-10-11T09:50:00.000+08:00

I remembered you said: "Sometimes it lasts in love, sometimes it hurts instead."

2011-10-11T09:30:00.000+08:00

2011-10-11T07:56:00.002+08:00

Morning world.

112 days.

3 months, 20 days

9,676,800 seconds

161,280 minutes

2688 hours

16 weeks

LEFT.

I'm sorry for making you cry.

It may not be a very very

bad thing after all, come on! :)